It’s been almost four months since I posted a blog and the reason it’s taken so long for me to write another is a) college means I’m busy almost all the time and b) I didn’t really have much to say between then and now.
I’m still busy, but a lot has happened since I last posted and I wanted to give you all an update. This semester of college has been somewhat of a roller coaster.
I came back to APU excited to start a new semester and see friends again. I thought it would be smooth sailing, but truth be told, I had a rocky start to this semester. The first two weeks were filled with anxiety. I had no idea the change in my schedule would have led to the difficulties that it did. New classes, new professors, new people, new syllabi. I felt overwhelmed and unmotivated. The mountain that lay before me seemed a bit too tall to climb. Not only was school itself stressful, but my friendships were too.
I started going to counseling to help manage my anxiety, and I think a mixture of this and the fact that I started adjusting helped tremendously. Also, about three or four weeks into the semester, I made more friends (an answered prayer), the lack of motivation had melted away, and I established a new routine.
Though the beginning was rough, this semester has truly been a blessing so far. I’ve already learned and grown so much.
One of the most challenging but also most exciting parts of this semester is the converged journalism workshop I’m in, which is another way of saying I’ve been writing for APU’s newspaper and magazine while also creating podcasts and video packages. This class is demanding. It has pushed me out of my comfort zone on multiple occasions. But this class has also revealed to me that journalism is where I’m meant to be.
Though it was rare, I had moments of doubt last semester about my major. I debated if I should switch to something else (even though I have no idea what that would be), but being a part of ZU Media has shown me I’m right where I’m supposed to be. Not only do I love contributing, but the positive feedback I’ve received from the other students on staff has been so encouraging, affirming, and uplifting.
Another meaningful part of my semester is the friends I’ve made. To be honest with you, coming out of the first semester I had about three solid friends and a few acquaintances. It’s completely different this semester. I actually have people to eat dinner and watch movies and go places with! That sentence makes my first semester sound incredibly lonely. I promise you it wasn’t that bad. But this one is a heck of a lot better.
I prayed hard for friendships last semester and I was so confident that God would provide amazing people for me in due time, and He did! I deepened the more shallow relationships from last semester and have made new ones altogether. Yay for new friends, yay for adjusting to college, yay for feeling like I’m in the right place, and thank you to my three friends who kept me company last semester.
Now that you’re all caught up on my first half of the semester, I’ll update you on spring break, which happened last week. It was an incredible week, to say the least. I know I said Thanksgiving break was one of the best weeks of my life, but this one was too, hands down.
But before I get into that, I turned 20 on February 27! Crazy, I know. I’m no longer a teenager, and it’s a bit odd. But cheers to my 20s!
Okay, back to spring break. My mom came into town, got a rental car, and we drove up to Sacramento to visit some family friends. (The same family I went to Oceanside with for Thanksgiving!) It was wonderful to see them again and just hang out. We also went to Lake Tahoe for a day! It was my first time, and hopefully not my last. Such a beautiful and peaceful place.
On Wednesday, my mom and I drove back down to APU, but we stopped in Carmel for 3 hours, and drove on California’s Highway 1 through Big Sur, and WOW. I have no words. Big Sur had been on my bucket list for quite some time, and I could not recommend that you go more. Seriously, if you have not been, you need to see it. After it got dark, we went back inland and drove four hours and finally made it back to home sweet dorm.
The last two days Mama and I had together we spent at the beach, in West Hollywood, and stuck in LA traffic. We listened to a lot of podcasts about the Enneagram—we’re both type 1 in case you’re wondering—since we had all the time in the world going to and fro the beach each day. (It takes about an hour to get to the beach from APU, and two hours if traffic is bad. Yikes! But totally worth it.) The beach was lovely, as always. We also got to eat delicious food and meet up with another friend!
It was so sweet to have a whole week with my mom. Such precious time and such fond memories were made. I really could not have asked for a better week!
This post is getting a bit long, but I have one more update for you, and surprise surprise, it has to do with the coronavirus.
My school has decided to switch all its classes to an online format for the remainder of the semester. I really did not expect this. Not at all. I came back from spring break excited to see my friends again and finish out the year with them. I even got sad at the thought of leaving them all behind in eight weeks. Though most of us are staying as of now, some are deciding to leave and I won’t get to see them until the end of August.
Online class is not ideal, but it is what it is and I can’t say I’m too upset or scared. Still, it’s crazy how quickly things can change. Two days ago I did not expect any of this. Things don’t always go as you plan, I guess, and that’s okay.
What’s funny is that I was just starting to really appreciate where I was. My school, California, the people around me. The past week has been blissful despite the stress because I finally feel like I’m where I’m supposed to be. And now it’s all changing. Not forever, of course, but still. It’s also been raining here in SoCal, a rather odd occurrence, and it’s been adding to the apocalyptic feeling of all the corona madness.
All that said, I’m honestly more stressed about my research paper due on Wednesday than I am about the coronavirus. I feel like this blog post could have said a lot more or maybe said things more eloquently, but I’m a bit stressed about life right now, so I’m just gonna have to be like Elsa and let it go.
Thanks for reading. 🙂