Hello! Thanks for joining me as I begin this adventure in Slovenia. It has been a busy week and a half. First arriving in Murska Sobota, my mom’s hometown where we hung out and caught up with family there (I also became a Slovenian citizen!), and then in Ljubljana this past Saturday. I’m all moved in and even got to go to church and explore the city with my mom and cousins.
I am still not over jet lag, am a bit worried about my food situation (cooking all by myself for the first time?!), and I have to say goodbye to my mother on Sunday.
BUT, the good has outweighed the bad. The weather is cooler, I get to live in a beautiful city with my cousins, and I’ve already made friends at school!
The truth is, my attitude and feelings towards moving here have been mostly positive, which I am grateful for. I’ve been excited, looking forward to each step dealing with the emotions as they come. Upon arrival to Croatia, the destination of my last flight, I had the urge to cry which I honored for about ten seconds but then shoved back down again. It is not easy to hold in tears, but being the way I am, I held them in with all my strength until I was laying alone in bed that night. The rest of the week I was completely fine, and then come Saturday.
Actually, on Saturday I felt okay, it was Sunday that really got me. I went to church with my mom and two cousins and was welcomed so warmly there. I was feeling a bit down on Saturday evening and the feeling carried over into Sunday, and I thought going to church would cheer me right up, but it instead caused the floodgates to open.
It’s a feeling I cannot fully put into words. I wasn’t sad, I wasn’t scared, I wasn’t worried. I was completely at peace with where I was and what I was about to do. Instead, I was overwhelmed by all the change happening at once as well as the love that was surrounding me.
Everyone acted so kind towards me, one woman even told me that crying is good because it washes your eyes! That got a laugh out of me.
My mom left Ljubljana today, and I am on my own (mostly) for the first time in my life! My feelings towards this change by the hour, ranging from ready as ever to wanting to hide under my covers.
Yet I am confident in the Lord’s plan for me, and know good things lie ahead of me along with immense growth in all areas of my life.
Again, if you are here reading this, I want to thank you for your support. The thought of writing this blog has been more intimidating for me than moving to Slovenia, because as much as I love to write, having other people read my writing is a big step out of my more reserved comfort zone.
So again, thank you!!!